31 and still kicking
I set the alarm clock at 4am in my mobile , and dive into my ever inviting bed. My dainty doona felt so good that i fell asleep almost instantly. In my sleep i heard a femiliar noise ding ding ding.. argh, it was the sound of an incoming text message. I woke up, grab my tiny mobile left accross the room (so as to prevent me from turning off the alarm and resuming my sleep). It was a birthday wish from a good friend of mine, i smiled and went back to sleep. I am a light sleeper and it is hard for me to get back into REM when woken up. 10 minutes before midnight, my mobile started ringing continuously.. friends called, some sang birthday songs and text well wishes. I really appreciate it.. but hey i need to sleep..
That morning i woke at 5.10 am.. knowing i only have 30 minutes to get to the airport, i was out of my house in 5 minutes, picked up Chell and dash to the airport. I was the last to check in. But thank god i made it. The meeting was over at 3pm and my flight back to Miri is at 8pm. Then i decided to stay in KL over the weekend to at least get a chance to soak up the celebration mood.
Soaking up the atmosphere
Last year I was in Phuket on my birthday. The year before i was in Singapore. 6 Dec always special. Ironically this year, i feel this is just like any other day. I dont make a big fuss about celebrating birthdays anymore. I am 31, not 13 for god sake. But then i realised, that i dont have anything to proud of, to shout about. I dont want to be mediocre. I dont want to rot for nothing. I have not achieve anything i can boast about in my life. But now i am determined to change that. I am the pride of Kampung Paya Mas, Tangkak... But what is it really that I want to achieve? Start a family? (which i guess is long overdue) Promotion? Academic? I dont know... I will think of something.
Today, i spent most of my time alone and counting my blessing. I may not be as successful as i want it to be, but my life was blessed with all the good things from GOD. Love from my family, caring friends, good health and countless others. I then remember The Law of Gratitude, To get more we must appreciate what we have now. I guess what i want to achieve this year is to ... (I am still thinking)
My favourite passtime, thinking or more aptly having my head in the clouds
Thank you to Suffian, Ronnie, Nizar, Razak, Odeng, Tori, Nuzul, Tuah, Ila for the trouble to entertain me on my supposedly special day, and all of you well wishers out there. Hani (Ayang) whose singing voice sounds like a kid from kids shows, Ninut, Wei Jun, Kak Sariati who called all the way from Denmark, Da'a, Sam, Che As, Chell, among others, too many to mention. I really appreciate it.